[01 Nov 2005|09:14pm] [ mood | scared ] [ music | nothing ] Soooo i just woke up from the scariest nightmare that i think ive ever had...and it like traumatized me...gah.i cant stop shaking ,it was soo weird i woke up thinking it was true.Me and Ryan got kidnapped or whatever by this old man and he wouldnt let us go,and if we tried to run away he threatend to kill us...and i got away when he left for a second and i thought ryan was behind me but he wasnt he got trapped in the house because the old man returned.So i ran to my house to call the cops for help but they didnt really do anything.The house where ryan was at was only three away from mine and i kept running over there to save him but the old man threatend to kill him if he saw me there and all that...so i was screwed pretty much either way.I may be sounding stupid but it just scared the shit out of me because i had the worst feeling ever just when i was sleeping it felt fucking gut-wrencing to think that i wouldnt ever see ryan ever again thanks to some old man who took him away from me.It lasted for two hours and it had the worst ending.Ryan was callling out my name for help and i was so close to saving him but then i woke up from ryan's phone call.THANK GOD.I swear it felt so real.Ryan must think im a nut for freaking out on the phone tellin him about it and constantly asking him if any old men had talked to him today wow im really a basketcase...but he calmed me down and made me feel much better by telling me that he would always protect me no matter what :-D Awww i love him ♥ well had to type that okay bye. 2 COMMENT.

[24 Oct 2005|06:09pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | lifetime movie ] Happy 4 months to Ryan And I ! god damn...i wish i could explain to him how he makes me feel...im speechless again.its crazy. 2 COMMENT.

[14 Oct 2005|03:29pm] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | Welcome Home - Coheed & Cambria ] hmm so i havent updated alot in fo'ever. soo heres whats going on. i tried out for the christmas play for school with theresa and sam and me and theresa only made it as extras...prolly cuz were freshman an sam has 5 lines as a six year old girl.so i guess its a start. School blows as usual i fall asleep all the time and im going to have 2 D's on my progress report...and get killed. Im already dead enough,ive been grounded all week for always talking back to my mom and staying on the phone with ryan till like 2 am everyday on school nights and calling out of state 3 times...it aint lookin good for my social life. Other than that,the best thing going on right now is with me and ryan...he is so amazing!!! ahh sunday im going to cedar point alll day with him i cant wait..i just found out last minute but im still glad that i can go. Tomorrow im getting my hair died,probably redish highlights maybe? Samii is leaving for a week to go to florida and shes leavin tomorra :-( which is bad i will miss her so much,plus whos going to be my drama partner...im doin so good im that class me and samii are getting like an A on every skit because of how stupid and funny they are.todays skit was so funny all thanks to our italian accents and alfredo sauce. :-D anyway im not even supposed to be on here so i better go.byees ♥ 1 COMMENT.

[09 Oct 2005|07:56pm] [ mood | dirty ] [ music | Tulips are Better - Atreyu ] So Ryan came over today. :-D All i can say is today was a day to remember. I love my boyfriend so fucking much♥ 1 COMMENT.

[07 Oct 2005|05:36pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Alkaline Trio ] So. Sunday=Very very exciting day.*laughs evily and grins* cant wait!1 2 COMMENT.

[30 Sep 2005|10:08pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Im content with losing-underoath. ] hmm...well havent updated in a while. nothing exciting at all...school sucks ass,its boring and i get no sleep now. school fucks everything up i hate seeing ryan only on weekends.Homecoming is tomorrow...yay ryan is going with me...altho i always fuckin feel like shit lately i swear i could go fucking insane.I want to have a good time tomorrow...if i dont i think ill murder something. oh yeah,me and me mom keep fighting like really bad,i cant help it that she dosnt understand shit...she told me i ruin her day everyday and that shed rather be at work than at home with me...thanks mom? im now really selfish.i didnt used to be this way...whats goin on? COMMENT.

i apologize i was bored! [19 Sep 2005|05:59pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | Diamonds-Kanye West ] ( then your fat friend,her nickname is mini van!... ) COMMENT.

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